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April 29 Obstacle The guide of our class says to me,"The most troublesome problem is people's problem."In college life,my bigget obstacle is also how to deal with the relationship with others.I am used to receive the fact that everything and every people meet my demands before NCEE.But the truth is that the most things happen to me won't damage to other's and the pepole I really lived with are only my parents.Now the circumstance changes a lot,I should accept the fact that my friends and my lover deal with sth in a different way but a right way which I don't expect.Moreover,I should learn to think of the problem in their view. I think I have gradully understand some of her doings,because sometimes I treat the girl I don't like in the same way.(I ofter fell very sorry for that girl,but I have no idea to do better)When I meet that girl,I try to pretend that i don't notice her and I am very cool.When that girl speak to me,I will show my unpatient and indifferent. Every people shares fair,I should suffer when I make others suffering. April 23 That's life When I was young,I was eager to grow up,to experience anything I hadn't tasteted,to finish every targets which were defined to the key to be a "success" by the public.Even if I had the protection from parents,pure relations with classmates,low stress,I still wanted to get out of the "green house" as soon as possible. However,as one grows up,various distress come hand by hand.I began to miss the time in the childhood,trying hard to reminisce over the old feel.Dose it work?Absolutly no,it isn't useful to change the situation.In contrast,I wanna battle for the setbacks bravely like a warrior rather than lick the wound silently, hiding in the old memories, as a coward.That's life."You can't make anybody feel the way you'd like them to,if they do,it's wonderful.And if they don't,you move on."Actually,we should appreciate the bad experience.We will feel happy because sadness exists,we learn to cherish times when be together because departure is inconsolable,we get succeed because we has convinced the lose. Keep the attitude towards life that there are always 8 or 9 mess in every 10 things in the world will make me stronger. April 21 A Awful Choice This afternoon,I left my bike on the parking lot of the No.3 student's building as usual.When I went out of the building,the building ministrater called me back. "Do u live in this building?"She asked. "Uh....Yes!"I told a lie. "What's your name?"It seemed that she didn't wanna give up. "Chen Li."I got on the way to the darkness. Then the rookie liar's lie was easily defeated by the veteran.When she was blaming me severly,my brain filled with deeply shame and the most popular idea wrote by the primary student -----"dig a hole to hide in". Many people will consider the whole thing is meaningless.But I don't think so.It recalls my experience in the library XI'AN Jiaotong University.What would happen if I told that library guard I was a visitor instead of I was a student there.What would happen if I told the ministrater my bike-stolen experience for winning her sympathy instead of telling a lie.Both of them reflect my inmature attitude towards handling sudden incident.When emergency happens,I am so panic that I lose the ability to choose the deliberate choice,on the contrary I usually hurriedly make the ridiculous decisions such as breaching principle to cheat myself. Come on,there is still long way to go. April 16 随笔 不知何时起，写日志就是为了想让她看到，斟字酌句、反复修改，仍然产生很多误会，好像永远也解释不清。 才一个星期没联系，感觉时间早被变压器放大了十几倍。努力把时间安排得满满当当，但思念仍然会乘虚而入，抑或是做事根本无法全身心地投入。很多人劝我碰到这种情况就要找她好好说清楚，我只能报以苦笑，用短信、QQ根本别想弄清楚。 经过一番努力，还是只能原地踏步般地在虚拟工具构筑的世界中彼此试探、接触，完全不是我想要的结果啊。 April 05 清明采风 无法想象一路上竟然遇到如此多的美景，山水相映的洞庭湖、阡陌交通的田野、潮湿阴仄的古巷、单纯可爱的动物，看来不报期待才是出行的最好心态。 夜晚，满天星斗、蛙声连绵，一个人躺在小屋里，竟然无法和着时续时断的麻将声入眠。借助CD，才能断了思念。一直苦苦思寻，自己是因为寂寞才期待爱情还是在喜欢一个人后，对寂寞、孤单愈加敏感、恐惧。现在的我，着实比以前那个只顾玩游戏的我脆弱了，知之并不比不知的好。 很羡慕上辈拥有很多兄弟姐妹，而我们，在面对苦难、压力时，大部分时间只能期盼爱人的慰藉。 |
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